Friends, the countdown has dramatically changed. In less than 12 hours we will board a plane that will begin our physical journey to Nora. The emotions are crazy out of control, so much joy! But, also heartache as I anticipate how Nora's life is going to change ... forever. This brave little girl experienced loss as a newborn, when all that was familiar to her ... the sound of her family's voices, the smells ... was forever changed. And, on Sunday, she will again experience great loss as once again everything changes, as she is placed in our arms, arms of strangers.
Oh, how I want her to know that she is exquisitely beautiful and loved and that this is it. This is forever, we are not going anywhere. I know this will take time, and I know that not everything will be storybook. But, I also have been reminded by wise friends that God goes before us. He knows. He knows the paths ahead, the paths of beauty and grace. He knows that paths that may frustrate, challenge and deplete us ... giving us hope as we look to Him and gain strength.
When reviewing our itinerary, I cannot help but focus on Sunday, October 21st, Gotcha Day, the day we will meet our daughter, see her face to face. But, I mourn Nora's loss, never knowing her birth family. I do treasure the little glimpses into what we know of her past, the pieces we can share with her someday, the pieces that speak to the overwhelming love her birth family had for her ... to wrap their precious daughter in a pink blanket and travel, from who knows how far, to purposefully place their daughter in a location where they knew she would be found and cared for. Oh, we are grateful for the love so clearly evident in this. But, as I celebrate becoming a mom again, my heart breaks for Nora's birth mom.
Yet, I am grateful for this bittersweet time. This time that God is working in me, in our family and in Nora. So, I will choose to embrace it all, the hard and the over the top bliss, all of it. Mourning. Anticipation. Fear. Joy. Grief. Celebration. Thank you for your prayers, encouragement and for loving on us and joining in our excitement. Please join us in praying for Nora's heart and her healing.
So crazy excited for the next stage of this journey!
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